secrets...reality...truth...lies...unveiling me...

i am a tomasian..an artlet..a GAP..an AA..i am these four..i've been so lost for the past year...my life was a total mess but it was not because i don't know anything or i don't know myself and what to do with me and my life. but it was because I DO KNOW! i know what i want..where i'm suppose to be and where i belong. because i know where myself, life and heart is! i was just having a hard time figuring out and accepting what i am now..not that i'm no longer those four anymore..but this desire and passion to be again would become my very motivation and inspiration to work hard.. to be focused and to strive through..i have found myself..i know what i want...i know who i am..I AM A TOMASIAN..A GAP AND AN AA! THIS IS WHO I AM..THESE FOUR DEFINES THE VERY ESSENCE OF WHAT "I" MEANS! AND IM GOING TO DO WHATEVER IT TAKES TO BE ME AGAIN!Ü

almost 4 months na ang nakaklipas...pero umiiyak parin ako...sa twing asa kusina ako at naghuhugas ng plato...tuwing nakaharap lang ako sa pc ko dito sa office..at tuwing umaga...di na kasi aku nakakatulog ng gabe eh..tuwing umaga nalang...pag nakatulog na ko sa kakaiyak...di na ako umiiyak sa harap ng iba...la na ding may alam na masakit pa din pala...sabi nila...mas madaling kalimutan ang di mo nakikita..ang di mo nakakasama..pero anung gagawin mu naman para mawala ang mga alaala? ='c minsan napaka-desperada na ng tingin ko sarili ko...trying hard to look inlove just so they wont notice the tears...oo,,niloloko ko nga sarili ko...trying to pretend that im so over and fine when i'm not...but it is better to be this way... ='c eto nalang kasi magagwa ko..is to pretend...la na din matiyatiyagang makinig sa lahat ng sama ng loob ko..sa lahat ng bitterness na meron ako... ='c i have lost my faith inlove...tingin ko nga parang there is no sense in loving again eh...parang im no longer capable of loving... =c ang lungkot mabuhay sa mundo ko ngayon noh...to be stuck in a place so cold and dark...where the only person you have entrusted your life and love left you instead of saving you...ang kupal nga eh...iniwan niya ko pero sabi niya sakin mahal niya ko! POOTAH!!! pakisabi nga...anong part ng pangiiwan at pangagago mo sakin ang nagpapakita ng mahal mo ko?? pakisabi naman...paki-explain...because I JUST CAN"T FUCKING GET IT!!!!

Someday you’re gonna realize
One day you’ll see this though my eyes
By then I won’t even be there
I’ll be happy somewhere
Even if I cared
I know you don’t really see my worth
You think you’re the last guy on earth
Well I’ve got news for you
I know I’m not that strong
But it won’t take long
Won’t take long

Coz Someday someone’s gonna love me
The way I wanted you to need me
Someday someone’s gonna take your place
One day I’ll forget about you
you'll see I won't even miss you
Someday someday

Right now I know you can tell
I’m down and I’m not doing well
But one day these tears they will all run dry
I won’t have to cry, sweet goodbye

meron akong nakasched na rehersal kanina sa UST...kaya nagFX ako mula pasig papunta mendiola..tapos naglakad papuntang morayta at sumakay ng jip papuntang dapitan...habang nilalakad ko ang tawid daan ng mendiola..meron akong taong biglang naalala..matagal ko na din di nagamit ung rutang iyon..usally kasi sa quiapo na ko bumaba at sumasakay ng dapitan mula doon...nitong mga nakaraang araw ko lang naumpisahang muling tahakin ung daan pamendiola...habang pababa ako sa may kanto ng tropical hut o greenich ata un...naalala ko bigla ung mismong taong nagturo sakin pano magcommute papuntang mendiola...papuntang uste...sa bawat habang na nilalakad ko papuntang sakayan...nalala ko siya...ung matangkad na kalabo na katukayo ko..ung kasama ko noong naglalakad ng daan na un...kahawak kamay...kakulitan...nakarating na ko ng uste at sumalubong sakin ang balitang cancelled na pala ang rehersals na pinagmamadalian kong puntahan...kaya nakipagkwentuhan nalang ako sa mga kaibigan kong matagal ko ng di nakasma...kinamusta ung mga taong matagal ko ng di nakikita at nakibalita din sa mga latest na mga chismiss sa iskwela...sa kalagitnaan ng kwentuhan...bigla ng napagusapan ung tungkol sa bf ko ngayon...nagumpisa akong magkwento...sa di ko malamang dahilan...bigla kong naisali sa usapan ang isang lalake sa aking nakaraan..ung guy na nasakatan ko ng sobra..kasi nalaman niya na may bf pala ako...na all the time na kinakasama ko siya...meron na pala akong inuuwiang iba sa pampanga..hindi naman kame non...actually,,ayaw niyang magcommit pero kung makikita mo kami non magkasma,,,aakalain mo na kami na...nalala ko lahat bigla ng tungkol saming dalawa..mula sa unang araw na pinakilala siya saakin...hanggang sa araw nasaktan ko siya at nawala siyang bigla saakin...naalala ko ung unang araw na hinalikan niya ko..madilim non..asa bahay kami ni james..nakakatawa...kasi pagdating ng umaga...parang asta siyang parang walang nangyari saming dalawa...ang hirap ispellengin ng lalakeng un..gulo kasi niya..actually,,the ang term namin don eh..."ANG LABO NIYA"...nakwento ko lahat ng to kanina sa mga kaibigan ko...lahat hanggang don sa araw na nalaman niya na niloloko ko siya...nagulat nalang ako ng biglang nasabi saking ng kaibigan ko na..."kanina ka pa kris ng kris diyan...at wala pa kong naririnig na ibang taong bukang bibig mo kundi yang kris na yan...ni hindi pa ko nakakarinig ng kahit ano tungkol sa bf mo"...natigil ako ng narinig ko un...saka ko biglang naisip ang mga posibleng dahilan bakit nagkakaganito ako..bakit nga ba hindi ako nasakatan o nanghinayang non ng nawala siya?? bakit ni hindi ako gumawa ng paraan para ibalik siya?? bakit pinabayaan ko lang siya...?? AT BAKIT NAIISIP KO SIYA NGAYON!!!!!!!????? iniiyakan ko siya non...lalo na nung nagaway kame dahil sa isang problema na lubos na kinaasar niya...ang naging resulta pa eh...kinamuhian niya ung barkada niya...iniwan niya sila..dahil sakin...gustong gusto kung ung guy na to na pinagiisipan ko ng iwanan si bf ko non para sa kanya...ang tanging bagay lang non na pumupigil sakin e ung issue niya about commitment..alam niyo bang napakahirap naiisin nagustuhin ka ng taong un...kasi...basta! napakalabo niyang nilalang!! sasabihin niya na gusto ka niya pero taliwas ang papakita niya sayo pag kasma mo na siya at ang barkada niya...ANG HIRAP!!! un ung isa sa mga bagay na pumigil sakin non...kasi hindi ko lubos na alam kung gusto niya ba talaga ako o naglalaro lang siya...di ako sigurado kung kaya niya kong mahalin...o mahal niya na ba ako?? kaya ayun...nagplay safe ako...nalaman ko lang lahat ng mga sagot sa tanong ko nung araw na nabisto niyang may bf na ko...don ko nalaman na oo pala ung sagot...kaso..huli na...ANG TANGA NOH??? oo lam ko un...tapos kanina sa jeep ng pabalik na ko ng pasig...looking back at everything...if there is one guy I would like to be with right now...siya pala un...IKAW pala un...if there is one thing I want to do right now is to say Im sorry and asked you if you would take me back...and if you do...I'll promise to be loyal by your side...and that I'm not going to hurt you again...kaso kilala kita...di ka na ulit pumupulot ng basuro...at ang ginawa ko siya ay isa sa worst na mga bagay na ayaw mong ginagawa siya...which ginawa ko...haAAayy...

realization...MAHAL KO PALA SIYA...mahal pala kita...

SHet! I hate this feeling! its tearing me up...I'm in rage! GOD! I WOULD LOVE HITTING HIM IN THE FACE!

nakakatuwa...i can honestly say na masaya ako ngayon..pag lalake nga ang problema mo...lalake din ang tutulong sayo para makalimutan mo ito..and that is the exact medicine i'm taking right now...to take every bitter memories, pain and grief na dinadala ko for the past month especially last week...nga naman oh..my friend introduced a guy to me named mark..ang he's not bad at all hah!Ü i think im actually going to like him...actually i like him...i don't find him cute or anything...but his kind...sweet...and a gentleman...un pa lang ang napapsin ko sa kanya so far and i had a fun sunday night with him...i got to know his friends din...san ka pa!? nakipagsabayan ako ng inuman...ang laki na ng pinagbago ko pag dating sa inuman hah...nakakasabay nako...many thanks to my drinking buddies...H and alain...hehe!Ü well mabalik tayo sa lalaking un..nakakatuwa siya...isang araw ko palang siya nakikilala pero masasabi ko na may chemistry kame...at ease ako sa kanya...and we kissed...actually,,he kissed me...feeling ko kasalan na un nung pulang kabayo...hehe...Ü napalakas ata ung sipa nung kabayo sa kanya...nakakatawa nga lang...hehe!Ü K FINE! ALAM KO MEDYO MAY PAGKAMALI DON! hehe!Ü nyweiz,,,im really looking forward getting to know this guy even more...hehe!Ü un na...not bad!=p

One and only you

It took one look
And forever laid out in front of me
One smile and I died
Only to be revived by you

There i was
Thought i had everything figured out
Goes to show just how much i know
'bout the way life plays out...

Chorus:
I take one step away
but i find myself coming back to you
My one and only, one and only you...ooh...

Now i know
That i know not a thing at all
Except the fact that i am yours
And that you are mine

Ooh
They told me that this wouldn't be easy
And no
I'm not one to complain...

(Chorus 2X)

you..

I tried walking away from everything about you...but the problem is...i just realized that my whole life was about you...my life was you...even if I ran away far from where you are right now...it would not make any difference...my heart would not just simply set you free...it refuses to let you go...I can pretend around them but I can't hold the tears whenever I see you or whenever I'm with you...I hate you for leaving! I hate you keeping me hanging and waiting on dead air! I have you for giving up! I hate you for forgetting! I hate you for not comming back! I hate you +because...I love and need you!

there was a terrible typhoon that hit manila earlier...I was at the office when it stroked...roofs where flying everywhere...people got stranded...some died when the billboards fell...there was this creepy sound of the wind whistling... surrounding the building...the wind covered roads with the thick fog...trees where uprooted..there where disconnected electric wires everywhere...lamp post fell...electricity got cut offed...no means of transportation...metro manila was merely a ghost town after...darkness...but all i could think was getting in touch of you...calling you..checking if your fine..making sure that if ever I die..i was able to reach and talk to you and let you now that i waited for you until my last breath..but what do i get in return..a very cold hello... ='c my God! what a heartless kind of person are you?! you were not even kind enough to comfort me! to assure me...to appreciate! i'm asking so little from you! but didn't even had the time to stop and care! EGO! God! JERK! YOU ARE A ONE BIG JERK! JERK! F*** YOU!

alam mo im simply do hate you! grabeh! hindi mo ngayon alam kung gano ako kagalit sayo ngayon! hindi ako tanga! naasar ako sayo...maraming nagsabi na mabait ka! pero hindi ako naniniwala sa kanila! peke ka! parati mo nalang ako dinadown! you don't even trust me...or kahit man lang bigyan ako ng kahit konting credits na kaya ko! na alam ko naman ano ginagawa ko! sabi mo childish ako! pero hindi mo naman akong tinuturing na isang grown up! parati mo nalang akong piangmumukhang tanga! lahat nalang ng sasabihin ko sayo mali! gusto mong pakinggan kita! pero ako ba pinapakinggan mo! i so fucking hate you! i hate you so much! la akong pakelam kung gusto ka ng ibang tao..kahit ng mga kaibigan ko! pero ako! kinamumuhian kita! you never did trust me with anything! anything I say or anything i do! you were never there for me! but you were alwayas there to bring me down! to my lowest point! i don't want to talk to you ever again! ever! im not going to say sorry for everything i say right now! and i'm taking them to my grave! im not going to speak to you again! i hate you! i really do! your so unfair! napaka-bias mo! pota ka! i hate you soo much! you hear me! sinusumpa kita!

at ikaw na pakelamero ka! look at me! sana masaya ka na! ang laki ng bunganga mo! ang kapal mong manita ng mali ng iba! pero pusta ko! ni minsan hindi mo sinubukang tinignan ang sarili mo! potang ina mo! gago ka! isa ka pa! pota!

pag nasaktan ka ng taong mahal mo..
patawarin mo..
wag mong iwan..


baket?


kahit naman ikaw siguro pag nagkamale...
ayaw mo naman siguro na basta ka nalang iwan ng walang kalabanlaban... ='c


MARTIR!

Where the fuck can I find my own Mr. McDreamy..? Meredith has Derek Shepered and who the fuck then is for me?

I feel like crap today...i got 95 for my QA scores! damn! that's really bad..i got marked down because of my tone and pacing...I tend to sound irate daw and raise my voice higher to my ct..SHIT! CRAP talaga!

I'm still at work right now..and I'm impatiently waiting for my shift to end right about after 13mins...kanina ko pa nga dinadaya ang call master eh...hehe!Ü

I'm already a certified addict or fan ng Grey's Anatomy...hehe!Ü kanina pa ko naghahanap ng clips ng season 3 niya..wheheh!Ü

Kung mapapansin niyo napakadistorted ng sinusulat ko ay dahil yan kasi distorted din ang utak ko right now...I can't set my thoughts right! kaya ititgil ko na muna ito...hehe!Ü

why do i feel like im cutting my heart into two? i watched Grey's Anatomy Season 2 for the whole day..without sleep! ( addict! ) i started around sunday 9pm and finished 9:30pm this day...so you could just vision how sleepy i am right now here at woik but the catch is I CAN"T SLEEP DURING WOIK can I!?! damn! way the go sendang...a perfect way to career suicide..The show was really nice even if I'm getting really pissed off about the kind of relationship Meridith Grey and Derek Sheperd have! IT REALLY SUCKS YOU KNOW! i cried so many times...that series made me think...i had my plingkanting moment nananaman sa bus habang papunta ako ng work dahil sa kakasip ng series na un! hanep! AT syempre naiyak nanaman ang lola mo noh! dahil naaalala ko nanaman ang bwisit na lalakeng un! nalungkot nanaman ako..shet! one of those freakin days agen..why do people stay in love with wrong persons anyway????? stupid peeps!

Sometimes we fall in love and it feels so great--
So great that we never want to fall out of it...
But sometimes, though we hate to admit,
We have to fall out of it..
And falling out of love is such a great decision
to make...
Actually, it's one decision that can haunt us forever..

Falling out of love doesn't just mean that we
don't love the person
anymore..
It means more than that..
It means not wanting the person whom you have
thought to be a part of you-

To be a part of your today and tomorrow.
It might also mean that you don't want to care
for the person anymore
Or rather, that you have grown tired
Of waiting for that person to come back to you...

And that it's that waiting that made you fall out of love..
It might also mean that you can't have what you want,

And that you are no longer wanted by the other person..
Now that would hurt a lot, but if that is the case,
Then maybe, falling out of love is the right choice.

But how can a love as sweet as mine be so wrong?
How and why would I want to fall out of love from
someone I truly care for?
Why would I want to start my life all over again
When I can just pick up the pieces and go from there?
But most of all, why would I want to teach my
heart not to love someone
Whom I have known in my heart, as the one person
that I will love forever.

These questions and so much more can be answered
by a single word..
And that word is "LOVE"..
Though we don't want to admit it to ourselves,
love has two sides..
Falling in love and falling out of love..
It has two faces and we tend to forget the one
that hurts..
And maybe, this is what I, myself have forgotten.
Maybe I have forgotten, that when I let myself
fall in love,
I also let myself vulnerable to feel the pain of
falling out.
This is this risk that I have to accept
If I want to experience "LOVE"

And it is this "LOVE" that has led me to where I
am today.
Maybe it is not all love that will keep us in a
relationship..
Maybe there's more to it than love..
Maybe relationships need more ingredients other
than love..
Maybe if patience, loyalty, trust, respect,
honesty, and communication are added
Then maybe, the relationship will be better.
But what happens when we all know these and more
Yet we still do fall out of love..
What is next? Do we fall out of love like a lightning?
Do we fall out of love as if we got burned?
No--we don't...
For falling out of love takes so much of who we
are.. It takes away our strength and our heart.
Falling out of love is like trying to stop
something that we are fond of
doing,
Or trying to stop what we like so much...
It can also mess up with our minds...
'Coz when we fall out of love, we try to be so
analytical if why it has to end.
So now I ask, if falling out of love is so hard to do,
Then why do we still have to fall in love in the first place?

isang linggo ko ng dinadala toh eh! shet! gusto ko ng sumigaw! gusto ko ng magwala! gusto ko nalang umiyak..gusto ko ng mamatay...pag minamalas ka nga naman o...when it rains...it pours.. ='c bakit ba ang malas ko ba lately... nawalan ka na ng isang kuya...nawalan ka pa ng bf susunod...mawawalan ka na ng trabaho! hanep talaga! gusto nga pala kitang pasalamatan sa lahat ng sakit na dinadanas ko ngayon! sabi ng iba hindi ka magbibigay ng mga pasanin na di kayo ng taong pagbibigyan mo! e gago ka pala eh! madaling sabihin para sayo! dyos ba kaming kamukha mo! e kung totoo un bakit ang daming nagpapakamatay!?! bakit ang daming namamatayan! ayos ka din eh! galing mong magisip! pota!

ikaw...alam kong magaling ka...alam kong maraming ka ng alam kesa sakin kasi mas matanda ka sakin at marami ka ng na-expirience sakin..pero sino nagsabi ayo na lam mo na lahat dahil sa rason na un?!

ikaw naman?! ano ba kasing problema mo lately?! bakit ka ba nagkakaganyan?! bakit parang napaka-clueless mo??!! ang daming nagmamalasakit nanaman sayo oh..pero ayan ka nanaman..hindi ka nanaman nakakaramdam! bakit ganon??? u always tend to hurt all the people who cares and loves you! bakit ka ba parating ganyan??? bakit hindi ka ba magtino na??! ano? hihintayin mo nanaman mawala sayo lahat ng to bago mo ka magising sa katotohanan na kailangan mo ng magbago?! e gago ka pala e! napakatanga mo talaga! sige! sige lang! ipagpatuloy mo yan hah????!!!!! pagpatuloy mo nanaman ang lahat pag nauwi nanaman yan sa dating pangyayayare! bawla ka ng umiyak! GAGO! tae ka..sampalin kaya kita... magigising ka kaya! POTA!

it was hell day kahapon..as in...un na ata ang araw na napakarami kong tubig na linabas sa mata ko...ang sakit ng pakiramdam ko...ang bigat sa luob at sa puso...di ku na ng akinayang i-contain...sumigaw na ko pero andun parin..hanggang i snapped na and lost it..nagdilim na ang paningin ko dahil sa tanginang babaeng un! kaya nasuntok ko tuloy si reyal pati na ang pader na nagiwan ng pasa at pagmamaga ng kamay ko...hassle talaga...hanggang ngayon..maisip ko lang un..naiiyak na ko..grabeh! ang sakit ng mga sinabi mo sakin...lahat ng pangiinsulto..sa lahat ng di mu paginda..sa pagpapkita mong wala kang pakelam..wag mo sanang isipin na nakakalimutan ko na madami akong kasalanan sayo..aminado naman ako doon..pero deserve ko bang masaktan ng ganito?? ang sasakit ng mga sinabi mo...parang kung makapangtapak ka ng pagkatao...sobra! kung makapanglait ka..parang ang perpekto mo! OO galit ako sayo! nasasaktan ako! pero amidst sa lahat ng yon..hindi ko mapapagkaila na mahal na mahal kita...ayaw kitang pilitin na magstay sakin kung ayaw mo na... pero...sadyang di ku talaga kaya eh..alam ko sa sarili ko na di kita kayang mawala! ewan ko nga ba?! kahit gustong gusto ko ng sundin ang lahat ng payo ng mga kaibigan ko at iwanan ka na...di ko magawa...di ko kaya...masayado ko kasing naiisip na maayos pa natin toh...na kaya natin toh...ayaw kong sumuko sayo...kasi alam ko kahit na nasasaktan ako sa piling mo...e napapsaya mo din ako...isang klase ng ligaya na hindi ko nararamdaman sa iba..isang klase ng pagkakuntento at pagkapanatag na sayo ko lang nadadadama...

dadad...bakit mo ba kasing kailangan gawin eto? andito nanaman tayo? natrauma na ko..alam ko din na trauma ka na..pero ano na gagwin ko satin dalawa? mahal na mahal kita...ako kaya? mahal mo pa kaya? shet! naiiyak nanaman ako...dadad, sobrang pinagmumukha mo na kong tanga...di na ko masaya...parati nalang akong umiiyak.. ='c di ko na alakm anong gagawin ko! nalilito na ko...baka mabaliw na ko ng kakaisip kung pano na tayo...eto nanaman ako..andito nanaman ako sa state na toh...parang gusto ko nalang mamatay..siguro namna pag ginawa ko na un may nagawa na kong matino at tama para sayo...AAAARRRRRGGGGGHHHHHH!!!! this is killin me...your killing me and im fucking losing it!

SINO KA BA?! TAENA! SINO KA PARA SAKTAN AKO AT PAHIRAPAN AKO NG GANITO?! BAKIT KO KAILANGAN PUBLEMAHIN NA IPLEASE KA?! BAKIT KAILANGAN M,AY MAGAWA AKO NG TAMA PARA SAYO! IKAW BA KAHIT MINSAN NATANONG MO NA KUNG ANO NAMAN ANG NARARAMDAMAN KO!?! KUNG MASAYA PA BA KO?! KUNG PANO MO KO MAPAPSAYA?!????? BAKIT NAPAKA-UNFAIR MO! BAKIT IKAW PA! BAKIT IKAW PA ANG MAHAL NA MAHAL KO! POTA! MAMATAY KA NALANG..TAPOS SUSUNOD AKO! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!

isang linggo na akong may ubo at sipon..shit! ang sakit na ng lalamunan ko... feeling ko nga magkakalagnat na ko...pero i doubt kung lalagnatin ako..matagal bago ako magkalagnat eh...grabeh...i've been up for 24hrs already and i'm so freaking sleepy...i need to get some rest and sleep para makabawe sa mga inerhiya na nawala ko sa training kahapon at pagpunta ko sa uste...sobrang bigat na ng katawan at mata ko...para akong nabugbog na ewan...ang sakit talaga...bukod nga pala sa nanlalata ko ng masakit na katawan, malubhang pagubo, tumutulong sipon at paos na boses..meron pa akong napalaking singaw sa side ng bibig ko na napakasakit! hirap na hirap akong magtake ng calls! shet! nangongongo na nga ako...bwiset!

galing nga pala ako ng uste kahapon at kita ko lahat sila..silang lahat! namiss ko mga klasmeyts ko..nagulat nga ako na natutuwa pala silang makita ako..syempre puro sigawan na naman ng pangalan ko ang narinig ko na totoong nakakataba ng puso..at sobrang daming mga nagsasabing "i miss you o namiss kita!"...my comming to uste is such a bittersweet expirience..i was so happy to be with them but it broke my heart leaving them...di ku nga mapaniwalaan nung paalis na ko kahapon na UMAALIS NA NAMAN AKO... ='c la lang...kaya ayun..naiyak nalang ako sa FX..ang drama di ba...hanggang sa nakatulog ako sa FX na un at lumampas! peste! buti nalang mabait si manong at hinatid niya ko pabalik..huhu! =c kala ko deads na ko...tapos ang tibay ko pa..umuwi lang ako para maligo after non..sugod na ko sa woik ng 12am at la nanaman tulugan! fuck! i'm so freaking tired...ang bigat bigat ng pakiramdam ko! sobra! haAy..

pero alam nyo..kahit gano kabigat ang katawan ko ngayon..di ku masyado iniinda kasi ang saya ko naman kahapon eh...sulet! sobrang sulet! isang pakiramdam na di ku madalas nararamdaman...at itong mga tao lang nato ang nakakapagparamdam sakin...shet! i'm missing you all.. ='c wish i could freeze time or make it go back.. ='c





me and my buddy...na namimiss ko na ng sobra..pakiss nga.. *mwuah!*




me and my boprend...Ü so sweet...Ü




i really love these pics




really sweet..nakaraming kiss yan sakin hah!




si daki..one of the apprentice that i had a nice chat with last time nung sabay kame papuntang pasig...




at syempre..ANG PINAKAKAMAMAHAL KONG JASON! NA PINAGPALIT NA KO KAY MILES! ='c
i hate you! beh! =p

di ko ma-express ung nararamdaman ko ngayoneh...kaya idadaan ko na muna sa kanta..

Lead me on boy if you must
Take my heart and my love
Take of me all that you want
And if there's a thing that you need
I'd give you breath that i breathe
And if ever you yearn for the love in me
Baby
Whenever wherever whatever
Baby

Wish i knew if i could
Be the one that you could
Love forever and a day baby, oh yeah
And if there's a thing that you need
For you and your blood i would bleed
And if ever you yearn for the love in me

Whenever wherever whatever
Baby
Whenever wherever whatever
Baby

And if there's a thing that you need
I'd give you the breath
And if ever you yearn for the love in me
Whenever, wherever, whatever
Whenever, wherever, whatever

Whenever Wherever Whatever

why do i need to comply with the rules when i know that i'll be out of here after 2months???!!! its not because i wanted to but bec no matter what i do right i was already given the verdict that i wouldn't be hired since from day one! not because i was doing something wrong but simply bec they said so! there were times that i thought that i was doing well but nobody credited me for that, i thought i would hear kahit isang compliment lang pero wala! they never cared! nadedepress lang ako kasi kahit i was abiding by the rules and everything..di parin nila binawi ung sinasabi nila na matatanggal na ko! di ba! hindi nakakainspire! pota!

Falling in love isn't love

Here's why. When you fall in love.....

a. No decision is required. Falling in love just happens.
b. No effort is required. Falling in love is like.... Well, falling.
c. No hard work is required. Falling in love is being bitten by the love bug.

True love requires all three :

Decision, effort and lots of hard work.

In the Bible, love is a command. You make it happen.

Sure true love can only happen after you've fallen out of love.

When you begin CHOOSING TO LOVE, EVEN IF YOU DON"T FEEL LIKE DOING IT ---
THAT'S TRUE LOVE.

Relationships are tricky!

The strategies we think SHOULD work, don't work!
The strategies we think WON'T work, do work ...


Impressing people:

When we try to impress people - by proving that we are clever or rich or cool - people can see through us. And then we look silly.

We usually impress other people when we AREN'T TRYING to.


Chasing people:

When we chase girlfriends, boyfriends - even dogs - they run away! Why? Because we are chasing them!


When we try to trap people in relationships, they can't wait to escape!
When we LET GO of people, they often come back!



Helping people:

When we try to help others - children, friends, employees - by solving their problems, they become dependent on us - and even lazy!


Mostly, we help people by NOT HELPING too much.


Getting people's attention:

When we are desperate to be heard, we shout at people. And the louder we shout, the less they hear. Strangely, the opposite works.


People pay attention to us when we LISTEN.

IN A NUTSHELL

There's such a thing as trying too hard!